Saturday, April 4, 2009

What Fear?



My husband and I are in the process of building our first home. We've experienced a wide range of emotions since the day we decided to take the first step. You see we've been attempting to purchase home for years now, but there was always something not right about the timing. Once we came so close that we had an offer in on a house we had our hearts on only for it to fall through. God had other plans for us.

That was nearly three years ago and while we've looked at other homes, we have managed to keep a firm grasp on our apartment lease white knuckled and not ready to let go.

When the interest rates started falling and home builders began offering everything under the sun to sell, and then the first time home buyer incentive....well it was enough for us to step out and take another look. This time it was right, after prayer and three weeks of harassing our home sales representative (who has more than earned his commission) we took that first step....that leap of faith.

The evening we drove home after signing the contract it started, fear seeped in. It started with just one little thought.....what if? What if something happened to one of our jobs, how would we make our mortgage payments? In less than twenty four hours it went from "what if" to "this can't work". I'm not sure how we let that happen, fear doesn't come from god. Fear comes from trusting in things that are not of god, so place your trust in the lord and don't allow fear in your life. Seems simple and yet it happen so quickly. I'm very happy to say that as soon as we identified that we were in fear we ran straight to the lord. After prayer and renewing our minds, the fear was gone and peace had returned. Resist the devil and he shall flee (James 4:7)

What would of happened if we had allowed the fear to remain? Knowing how I have tendency to take control of EVERYTHING around me (still working on that one) I most likely would have gone back on our contract to build. I'm not even sure if you can do that, but I would have found out and lost our earnest money in the process. The worst would have been that I had stepped outside of the lord's will. I would of allowed the devil to steal the home God set aside for us and has been planning for us to have for these past three years.

Don't allow fear to control your life...God is in control.

Recommendation: Psalm 91- the whole chapter :)

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